I get a strange feeling, when I am lying in bed and my room is dark and I look out my window to the half lit back yard and I can see the neighbors TV flickering. There is a tall fence in between our yards, but the movement and colors are apparent through the cracks. Its strange to know that the only people in the world who know are them and me. Its 2 AM. Its every night. Its my best friends old house. I cannot drag my eyes away from the omnipotent presence. Soon it goes off and I fall back into my world.

When i got home from school my mom wanted to talk so I sat on the couch and leaned my head back. The cieling light was casting purple spikes about its circumference, and the textured lines on the pale sickly cieling distorted the light. A roly poly was crawling outward from what was likely a massive purple abyss. I sat and watched it crawl.

Remember Me?

Red lights are flashing on the highway                                                                                                                                                                       I wonder if we’re gonna ever get home                                                                                                                                                                     I wonder if we’re gonna ever get home tonight                                                                                                                                               Everywhere the waters getting rough                                                                                                                                                                      Your best intentions may not be enough                                                                                                                                                                 I wonder if we’re gonna ever get home tonight 

But if you break down                                                                                                                                                                                                        I’ll drive out and find you                                                                                                                                                                                                If you forget my love                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               I’ll try to remind you                                                                                                                                                                                                  And stay by you when it don’t come easy  

I don’t know nothing except change will come                                                                                                                                                    Year after year what we do is undone                                                                                                                                                                         Time keeps moving from a crawl to a run                                                                                                                                                                I wonder if we’re gonna ever get home                                                                                                                                                                        You’re out there walking down a highway                                                                                                                                                           And all of the signs got blown away                                                                                                                                                                Sometimes you wonder if you’re walking in the wrong direction                                                                                         

 When the last bird falls                                                                                                                                                                                              And the last siren sounds                                                                                                                                                                                      Someone will say what’s been said before                                                                                                                                                       Some love we were looking for                                                                                                                                                                                      But if you break down                                                                                                                                                                                                    I’ll drive out and find you                                                                                                                                                                                               If you forget my love                                                                                                                                                                                                       I’ll try to remind you                                                                                                                                                                                                      And stay by you                                                                                                                                                                                                                when it don’t come easy

Silent all These Years

my scream got lost in a paper cup

I think there’s a heavan where some screams have gone

I got 25 bucks and a cracker

do you think its enough to get us there?

Is the street,

In bright sunlight,

Stifling heat.

Undulating

Is the ocean,

And the sand

In one fluid combination

Of a million movements

Over and

Over they dance.

Undulating

Is the motion behind the hissing

In the tall lines of

Wheat grass

Behind my grandmother’s house

In the summertime

How much longer

Can I make believe?

Day in and

Day out

Theories to provide

Comfort

In perfect mornings

Love should be like

A perfect morning

Infinite calm

Immersion in

Dim light

Now

Is when the make believe

Halts

And I look

Behind me

Expecting to catch

A glimpse

Of someone

Creeping away

Into the evanescent night

The persistant thrumming of my heartbeat

counts of the seconds

each slower than the last.

Hardly an hour has past since I left you

on your porch, still

in the misting rain.

Your outline a stain

againsts the glow of the obscured porch light;

the night turned morning.

The memory of your warmth

stirs a gnawing within my chest

there is no rest

with your imprint on my mind.

Search for the deep,

no comfort in flightless sleep.

A Lack Of Color Link

and i held you there thinking
i would offer you my pulse
i would give you my breath
i would offer you my pulse

give you my breath

Jose Gonzalez-heartbeats

And this vague little smile is my all purpose expression, the meaning of which I will leave to your discretion..

i search your profile
for a translation
i study the conversation
like a map
’cause i know there is strength
in the differences between us
and i know there is comfort
where we overlap

come here
stand in front of the light
stand still
so i can see your silhouette
i hope
you have got all night
’cause i’m not done looking,
no, i’m not done looking yet